EVERYTHING WAS SO LOUD...

When you do what is right when you don't feel like it that's when you know you are growing. Note: I just read a lot of 'words' from a few... or more years ago that somehow I missed. COMPLETELY. I suppose this is what happens when you wander aimlessly. I can honestly say that many years have passed and I have worm holes in my brain. Most of the time, I wondered where I was? Holding onto a possibility to find 'myself'. I held on to hope that my father or J would finally catch interference, and be able to connect all of these things in my head by words, photographs, ELF, or time travel to be able to help me find my way back to where things were simple, and shimmered like it had been polished new. Fact of the matter... I wasn't doing very well, and fucked up what little that I actually 'wanted'. very true. However far away... I will always love you. Although... It's safe to say that you'll never see any of this. Then... I will be long dead (not suicidal) if you ever do. Breathe...YOU GAVE ME THE BEST MEMORIES OF MY LIFE! Thank you! I cherish them in a little nook. Yet, I suspect that you see things in your minds eye very differently. I can not control what I think. Therefore, I'm I know I can't control much of anything. If any part of you finds this... I wish you well. I miss you, dearly. Peace